CODENAME: MISS CHARLES GREY'S LOVER A.K.A LADY GREY

Dear Diary,

Sekali lagi...tajuk pelik. Ahahahahaha... *uhum* OK2... sebenarnya kini saya sedang membaca salah satu manga kegemaran saya, Kuroshitsuji. Kenapa pulak tiba2 tajuk tu lain tapi citer entri lain? macam tak ada kaitan kan? tapi...yang sebenarnya, ADA. Hehehehe... 

Semenjak kebelakangan ni saya cukup sibuk dengan pelbagai aktiviti... dari akademik dengan projek2 dan assignment yang dahsyat nauzubillah macam semester depan baru boleh siap, sampai ke kelab dan persatuan yang memang tak boleh ditinggalkan... dan tugasan sebagai seorang ketua sektor di kolej, juga aktif dalam indoor dan outdoor games termasuklah camping dan sebagainya...phew... alhamdulillah ada jugak masa untuk melukis dan membaca komik serta buku2 ilmiah. Dengan aktif begini barulah rasa puas hati sebab asyik terperap di bilik menyebabkan saya ni mudah jatuh sakit. Ya lah, sudah biasa dengan kehidupan bebas dan aktif, takkan lah berkurung lagi di dalam bilik kan...baik pergi bersukan... hehehehe

Okay laa... tadi saya melawat kelab yang saya salah seorang Admin di situ... seperti biasa, kelab Kuroshitsuji yang semua Adminnya melakonkan semula watak dalam cerita manga tersebut. Saya memegang watak Meyrin, pembantu kediaman Phantomhive dalam Kuroshitsuji. Dalam masa yang sama, saya juga menggunakan watak saya sendiri dan muncul sebagai Lady Lyana di situ. Jadi, boleh laa dikatakan saya yang sebagai seorang otaku,mangaka dan seiyuu dalam masa yang sama, bekerja sebagai admin dan melayan kelab peminat Kuroshitsuji yang sudah mencecah 18, 468 ribu orang peminat dari seluruh dunia (hanya kelab itu sahaja, belum termasuk kelab peminat yang lain). Berjumpa dengan orang yang pelbagai dan saya sebagai salah seorang yang dipanggil oleh semua org sebagai "Onee-san" (err...sebab saya antara yang senior dalam kalangan admin), pengalaman yang saya perolehi dalam masa yang sama telah mengasah kemahiran komunikasi dan berbahasa saya. Mana tidaknya, saya bertemu dengan beberapa orang peminat dari German dan saya belajar banyak perkara dari mereka... peminat dari Malaysia yang sangat friendly, peminat dari Singapura yang sangat manja dan sebagainya. 

Salah seorang admin telah menggelarkan saya sebagai "Lady Grey" ataupun Miss Charles Grey's Lover sebab saya mengaku saya sangat2 meminati watak Earl Charles Grey dari Kuroshitsuji. Berbanding dengan pistol atau senapang....saya lebih sukakan watak lelaki yang pandai bermain pedang atau panah, macam Earl Grey dari Kuroshitsuji, King Romualdo dari Fantaghiro dan juga Legolas Greenleaf dari TLOTR... di samping itu... ummm...persamaan 3 watak ni adalah dorg mempunyai warna rambut yg menarik, mata yang cantik dan (sebenarnya saya sukakan Legolas sebab dia sangat perfect!...=D). Watak Meyrin ni sebenarnya bertentangan dengan watak Earl Grey sebab Meyrin pakar dalam senjata api dan pernah menjadi pembunuh upahan sebelum bekerja di kediaman Phantomhive, manakala Earl Grey datang dari keluarga bangsawan yang terhormat pada zaman pemerintahan Ratu Victoria suatu ketika dahulu.

Saya sangat2 suka pada watak Earl Grey, King Romualdo dan Prince Legolas... <3<3<3

 Earl Charles Grey, Kuroshitsuji

King Romualdo, Fantaghiro

Legolas Greenleaf, The Lord of The Ring

Ah... ada lagi dua org...hehehehe...

Lucius Malfoy, Harry Potter

Severus Snape, Harry Potter

Okay... ini sedikit saja... XD ahahahaha.... (erk... kawan saya cakap "huih...ko ni playgirl" so saya balas balik "apa pulak??? ini kan watak dalam cerita saja... x salah pun.." =P )

A FLASHBACK OF MY MEMORIES: ABOUT A LADY #1

Dear Diary,

I wrote something that inspire me today... maybe because last night I got lack of sleep. Why? lately, before I fall asleep I always want to motivate myself...seems like I've become so weak. Weak in both mental and physical conditions. NVM, I know that it was just a test for me...a test...yes... oh...here, I wrote this one as my FB status...

I choose to protect...
even to protect isn't something easy for me...
I'm willing to keep those promises...
As it was a reef knot of trust for me...
I dare to left everything for myself...
just because I wanted to see the happiness in my family...
And I would never regret...
as long I know that I'm still in my track...

 You know, I'm start to think that it was really true, no matter how tough is a girl, she will feel on how big the responsibility is when she got it. Furthermore, it was a responsibility through a promises that she couldn't break. I would like to share... a story of mine, maybe this is a normal situation for you but opposite for me. 

 Long time ago, before I enroll at UPM, I still remember that I asked my aunt to tell me something. It was sounded like this:

 Me: Aunty, can you please tell me about something? this is something that I cannot discuss with my mother because I'm still thinking that it was really unsuitable for me to discuss it in such age.

Aunty: Sure... huh/ why not? you're almost 20....

Me: Actually... I dont understand so many things about love matter...I'm so sorry, this word "love" doesnt exist inside my mind before this... and to discuss it with mum or dad...I'm kinda shy...

Aunty: How weird you're, niece.  Usually people does discuss that matter with their parents. <she laugh>

Me: *speechless*

Aunty: Okay...pardon me. What is that?

Me: I wonder on something... err... aunty, do you ever fall in love with someone before this?

Aunty: Yes... to be honest with you, I admit that. But that's not the reason that I didnt get married until now...you know dear, sometimes we must let go of something that doesnt belongs to us.

Me: means?

Aunty: In my case, I didnt found anyone as him before this...and now it was impossible for me to get married... I'm already near to 50. 

Me: But aunty, did you ever confess to him?

Aunty: nope... I didnt. In most of the time I think that I got something to do than get married.. I come from the poor and big family, dear... so I choose to forget about love and move on to help them.

Me: Okay... *still thinking* Ah...I would like to know on how does my mum and dad get married? I got a feelings that mum doesnt like dad after all... but she was really weird...you know, sometimes I saw those two just like the young couples... teasing and teasing each other... but somehow I'm so happy to see them like that. 

Aunty: ah...about your mum... that sister of mine really a tough woman...actually, she and your father betrothed because of their parents. As I know from the real story, your mum actually doesnt like your father but she didnt hate him. Those two doesnt become a couple and doesnt dating even once before they get married. Our family tradition was very strong, dear. We always wanted to protect the family and dont ever blame your parents if they were so worry abut you. 

Me: I dont get it...I mean, those two... why they had betrothed because of their parents?

Aunty: because... long time ago, the old folks always used several kind of ways to prove that they choose the right person for their son. Your mum for example, she was asking to visit her mother-in-law and you know, she was doing the chores in all day. After that, the old folks will look on how you can manage those things...if you did it in proper way, you're pass.

Me: so complicated...

Aunty: yes... it is. Not every person can do it... you know, the old folks also kinda scary.

Me: Har??? O.O"

Aunty: because they can propose you without your knowledge and ask your parents for your hands in marriage. then your parents will accept it for you.

Me: WHAT? okay... that was very... *gulp* scary... @.@ Aunty...do you think that my parents will do the same for me and my siblings?

Aunty: I dont think so... they doesnt chose anyone... as long he got the IC, job and willing to take care of their daughter until the end. You see, I dont think that your mum will do the same for you.

Me: why?

Aunty: because so far... I know that she loves you and she knew you for a long time... since she was the one who given birth to you... she do said this to me also, that she got her high goals for you.

Me: Yeah... I do making several promises infront of them...

Aunty: keep up your promises... no matter what, old folks like the young generations who are honest and willing to keep the promise. You know, to promise is easy but you must remember to fulfill it. I dont get it... what is your promises between them...may I know if you dont mind?

Me: it was...something about the secret of family from your side, and something about taking care of this family if they're already gone, also something to do with those two youngest sisters of mine after I grade someday...also, something like that "wasiat" from my mother... to look after the family with my elder brother, which means, even I'm a girl, but I still got the responsibility to have a look after them as one of the head of family. Mum said that... I just...oh..I need to prepare myself...

Aunty: I see...must be because you got two brothers only. Your mother also take the same responsibility when our elder sister get married...we only got our youngest brother, the only son in my family. You can do it, dear...trust me. Your mother might see something inside you that you cant see by yourself before... but perhaps she does believe that you're the one who will fight for the peace in family... 

 Okay... so far, those are something that still haunted my mind lately...when I feel so down to underground, I would think about it... still, no matter what happen, I shouldnt give up. My family need me, and I'm the one who can help them right now. Not only because of my degree that I will get here, but because that my responsibility towards them. Also, a willing to do it all because of Allah no matter what reason it was.

A Medicine For My Sorrow: Al-Quran and Violin from My Mother, Spirit and Guitar from My Father

Dear Diary,

An English version again... Hello everyone... I've been so busy lately. There's no suitable words to said that I'm so happy with the "recover" of my blog... *clap*clap*clap*... yay~<3 so I can write the entry again (right now, I'm working on a very2 long2 entry about my camp...almost the full stories of it...XD...

Like I've said before, human got their up and down... and I do lately feel so. Most of the time I prefer to be silent as I start to get confused and everything seems a blend mixing to me. My semester 3 lives was very WEIRD, since so many things had happened unexpectedly. You know, I could tell that there was a secret admirers of me (seriously I'm so surprise...O.O" BUT I think that they find the wrong girl <me>... XD). okay, enough for that... unsuitable topics for me... it makes me wanna throws everything out. Yesterday, my group (me and my senior, abang Mus) and the combination of another group of my sister Helen, Maybe and Yvonne, got the presentation of webquest: Wordpress. I'm the developer, and the rest help me very much with their ability to translate... heheheeh <3 a big applause to them... *clap*clap*clap*

Okay... before that, I've been through so much about the sorrow life... when I almost give up on everything include my academic... yet my father call me and give me his advices and so on... Papa... I love you so much... ='D thanks for the advices... but the guitar from him... ^^" errrr.... I put it at my sister's house.... I miss that guitar so much...my Legolas de Amour. But, the "spirit" that my Papa gave to me was nearly to my heart... why? because of the blue ocean pendant he bought for me long time ago... yes, the blue ocean crystal pendant that really special because it was the only one that sold by the owner of the shop, like the Phantomhive ring color. I always can feel the presence of my family member when I'm alone... weird, but it is very true. My youngest sister also got the same pendant as me, but she own the purple in color...almost pink. It does suits us very well, because my siblings are 7, then it seems like we're representing the rainbow color. Have a look:

a) My eldest sister: got the ruby ring and bracelet from her husband (and her husband got the inherited Keris with ruby in color from his family)

b) My eldest brother: he own something orange... his Samurai... (my sis-in-law like orange)

c) My second brother: he own something yellow... almost gold in color... (his wife also love that color)

d) My second sister: got her wedding gift in green color and her husband's fav.color is green

e) Me: definitely got the blue pendant...and will be calm down when I saw blue color...

f) My younger sister: she own something in dark blue... almost near to dark purple and she loves it

g) My youngest sister: she got the purple-pink pendant... and she own so many pink and purple things... =.="

ah... weird...XD

Suddenly, I remember about my mother's al-Quran, which she gave to me since I can read the letters of Jawi... when I read and recite that al-Quran, I can feel the soft voice of Papa and the hug of Mama near to me... feel so calm and sometimes I can smell the smell of Mama long time ago when I'm still a kid... maybe... 15-17 years old ago. Miss that moment so much... ah...time is really running faster.

Mama do gives me a present for my academic achievement. So, I bought a violin because it was my first list that I wanted to own...and I wanted to play most. When I remember about her, I will play the violin...and the memories of everything will comes out... mama is really special by her own even... ^^" errr... NVM... I know why does she always like that... every mothers loves their child, but it is very hard for a child to loves their mother... hehehehe

Academic... activities...hanging out a lil' bit... I tried to suits myself with this kind of life that I never thought about it before...and thanks so much to Sir coz he does remind me about a lot of things in the life of a student. =)

EIN BRIEF VOR MEINE MUTTER... #ENGLISH EDITION

Dear Diary,

It was very rare to write such entry... with English version. My apologize for the grammar errors...I'm not so fluent with English, but still wanted to try out.

Yesterday, I got a news from my father. He called me via my number, and said that my mother is not well since a week ago. I'm not so surprise with the news, honestly... coz I got the sign about it. I've suffer a hard back pain since a week ago, and it is hard for me to breath. So, I couldnt be so hyper as usual. In addition, I also got homesick... maybe some people will laugh at me because of that. But... why do I need to shy for it? Maybe I'm so childish (in some people's eye sight) and I admit that... but I wont going anywhere if I just think about the heart that I've left at my hometown.

Yet... I've already become "unconscious" inside. The most fear that I've try to avoid for many years... the death heart. I'm telling you that it was not because of broken heart or get dumped (Sorry to say, but I prefer single...LOL... just because I feel that I'm not matured enough to give my heart to someone else), but it was because of deep missing and feel so lonely. Someone said, "Ah...just call your parents... we're not living in stone age anymore" or "You're such annoying you know" and so on... but;

do they knows on how it feels when I want to feel my home surrounding? 

do they knows on how it feels when I want to get closed to my family?

do they knows on how it feels when I wish to eat something that made by my mother?

do they knows on how it feels when I wanted to be pampered by my father?

do they knows on how precious my family is?

do they knows on how it feels when I need to make sure that everything is gonna be fine inside my family?

do they knows on how much I wanted to leave everything but I cant just because I've made an unbreakable promises to my parents long time ago?

do they knows on how expensive is the price that I need to pay... just for having a scroll of degree and bring it across South-China Sea for my parents?

do they knows about the difference between "you heard the voice" and "you see the person" ?

do they knows on how it feels when all of the time, even I've been surrounded by thousands of people, I still cant sense the presence of "family"?

only one answer: THEY DONT... coz as my former English teacher have told me once, "people cant understand how it feels...until they've the same feelings as you're. The linear and chemistry becomes one... and on that time, they'll realize that 'I should not said such things to that person'... "

As I've no choice but planning on how I'm gonna survive these coming 3 months here, I do...preparing a little black diary for my parents. Which I will write inside it everyday...even I know that they're not be able to read it unless someone read for them (my father still can read, but my mother not)...and for some reason, I'm writing those in English version... means, inside my family...only me and my youngest sister will be able to translate it, as the other siblings can't understand English. I'm doing it on my own purposes... there is something that only me, my lil'sister and my parents knows. =^^= hehe

Last night... I've wrote something for my mother inside the diary... EIN BRIEF VOR MEINE MUTTER... but here is the translation... ^^"...

Dear Mama,

When I miss you so much...I'll try to play even a single note by using my violin... and hope that the wind could send it for you... that my heart always whisper "I would like to be there by your side as I could". I wish that you'll know... on how worth a word to me right now... even far away, I still want to keep sending you my melody... along with a string that unbreakable forever...sealed inside an envelope called "heart"...special for you. Here... I wrote a poet for you...and fill every words with my feelings right now...

Once...

I've play for you a nice...

smooth melody from my flute...

Along with my happiness...

Accompany you to be your strength....

With a promise "I'll take care of you..."

But now...

I just can compose...

A "Missing Melody" from my violin...

Along with my loneliness...

Accompany you as a replacement of myself... 

With a promise "I'll take my responsibility...to be the one who'll be able to help everyone"

By heart,

Your daughter

What I wish for now on... I hope that my mother will recover soon. Maybe I shouldnt be a crybaby anymore... as I'm trying to improve myself here. Life is short... and I shouldnt give up to my conditions. I still got a little strength to stand in the road...and a tiny light that accompany me to across the road of "University Life". Mum... wish me luck... and Papa... lend me your advice as my shield...and I hope that I can become stronger as you're.

    P/S:: This is...(=^^=) Earl Charles Grey from Kuroshitsuji... *adore*

 

Me: He's really cute~<3<3<3

A FLASHBACK OF MY MEMORIES: KERANA... #2ND EDITION (ORIGINAL: DIARY)

Assalammualaikum wbt...

Alhamdulillah... baru saja selesai membaca blog rakan saya...Yaya... thanks so much~<3 muacks... hehehe...

Okay2... saya terfikirkan sesuatu yang langsung xda kaitan dgn "personal matter". Huu~ sebab rasanya, saya masih terlalu naif lagi mahu fikir2 pasal personal2 nih... let the time heal it. =D Hari ni 1 Jun... penerbangan saya sepatutnya pada awal pagi nih... 7.15 berlepas dari LCCT. Tapi saya dah balik Sabah dengan flight 9 mei hari tuh. ;) hehehe

Tapi terus terang saya kata, saya menyesal balik awal. Betul2 menyesal... tapi... x mengapa la. Saya rasa mungkin... ada baiknya begini, walaupun kini hati saya meronta nak balik UPM. Kenangan saya tertinggal di sana... dan KERANA itu saya rasa berat hati. Tapi, KERANA memikirkan parents saya yang memerlukan saya, saya sudi melepaskan semuanya... ikhlas KERANA Allah Taala. Baru2 nih, badai melanda bahtera keluarga kami... tapi alhamdulillah kini segalanya kembali tenang walau masih bergelora. Tak perlulah saya catatkan di sini. Bagi saya, itu ujian Allah SWT... ya... ujian... ujian kepada saya sebagai seorang anak, ujian kepada saya sebagai seorang adik, dan juga ujian sebagai seorang kakak... tak lupa juga, ujian kepada saya sebagai hamba Allah yang lemah.

KERANA... disaat saya baru hendak berdiri semula, ujian datang lagi... tapi saya redha. Saya tahu...suatu masa nanti saya akan menghadapi situasi yang lebih sukar dari yang saya alami hari ini atau hari2 sebelumnya. Mungkin kerana saya masih kurang mengerti... dan kurang memahami situasi? Ah... tak kisah lah. Saya harap saya tak pentingkan diri sendiri... tapi, jika atau sekiranya perlu.... saya sanggup jadi "knight" kpd family saya. Perlukah? Saya kena hati2... situasi tak membenarkan saya untuk terleka walau sesaat pun. Kehidupan yang tak sesuai untuk tumbesaran... *smirk* tapi... saya mmg tak pandai besar pun (org kata saya "budak2..." huh...penat saya dengar...)

Saya... terjebak dalam suatu jenis permainan. Ibarat bermain catur tapi ia set yang ganjil...ada 3 pemain... dan setiap set itu mempunyai raja yang berbeza. Saya... kalau boleh saya tak mahu terlibat langsung... ^_^" Hopefully.

CATATAN 30 OGOS: R.E.M.E.M.B.E.R

Selalunya… bila tulis catatan, saya akan guna “dear diary” dan banyak lagi. Tapi… kali ni, saya nak buat yang simple saja. 31 Ogos setiap tahun sangat bermakna buat saya. Sebab utama, hari kemerdekaan tanah melayu. Tapi, di sebalik sebab utama itu, sebenarnya banyak yang saya alami. Antaranya menghadiri sambutan hari kemerdekaan, parti kemerdekaan di rumah, berkelah di pantai Tanjung Aru dan melihat matahari terbenam dan sebagainya. Pada tahun 2008 pula, saya berkenalan dengan seseorang, orang Itali, yang bernama Alessandro Toso. Pada hari yang sama, saya membeli novel Hardcover saya yang pertama, “Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince”. <3 sangat gembira bila memikirkan semua itu….hehehhe… *berkhayal*

Ah… tahun ni, merdeka dirasakan sangat luar biasa. Sebab? Terlalu banyak kebetulan yang berlaku, bukan sekali tapi dah banyak kali. Entahlah kenapa… tapi saya ada perasaan yang gembira tentang apa yang berlaku pada hari ini… huuu… betapa sukarnya untuk meluahkan kata2 yang sesuai pasal ni. Hahaha… uhum… (ei… apsal dgn aku nih??!!) okay… hari ni… 54 tahun kemerdekaan tanah melayu. Tepat dengan 2hb Syawal, hari raya kedua. Sesuatu berlaku, dan… hopefully it is a happy ending in the future… ^^ hehehehe… but I should never expect a happy ending coz I know, there must be dozens of test that need to face.

Hari ni jugak…saya beraya ke rumah sahabat saya yang berdua. Mereka yang sentiasa takkan dapat digantikan oleh orang lain walaupun saya mempunyai ramai kawan. Rakan seperguruan saya, mengaji bersama, bersekolah bersama dan berkongsi masalah bersama… mereka yang sentiasa menyokong saya dalam diam. Ahh… sangat gembira bila memikirkannya. Seorang lagi, rakan karib saya yang banyak mengajar saya… ribuan kemaafan dipohon kepadanya sebab tahun ni saya tak dapat beraya ke rumahnya lagi. Selamat pengantin baru buat anak saudara saya, sepupu saya dan juga sesiapa yang berkahwin pada 3hb September nanti. Semoga Allah melancarkan walimatulurus kalian…

Hari raya ni… kenangan silam mengimbau kembali. Mestilah…walaupun berusia 21 tahun (baru jer…ok? Hahaha)…tapi, saya tetap bermain mercun dan meriam buluh… muahahaha… tak kisah… masih remaja lagi, bukannya dah kawin pun… (^^)V ahahahahahahahaa… uhum… esok, saya akan bertolak ke Bandar Sandakan. Perlu membeli barang2 untuk kenduri pada 2hb nanti. Mak aaaiiii…. Banyak betul perlu dibeli. Al maklum lah, mak tak dapat membuat kuih disebabkan kesibukannya (kami yang tak mahu mak membuat kuih, pasti mak penat), jadi kuh raya tahun ni 99% dibeli. Lagi 1%? Kami buat sendiri. Saya memasak, dan adik saya mencetak. Biskut kacang, so easy… heheheeh…rindu pada masakan rumah sangat2, tapi kali ni, bila balik ke UPM, harap2 saya takkan rindu lagi. Hehehehe… kini berada di rumah, menyebabkan saya rasa nak balik UPM saja… secara jujurnya, saya teringatkan taman di FBMK, Bukit Ekspo… dan juga,,, bagi saya... pemandangan Ampang Lookout Point yang indah bila senja menjelang tiba itu membuatkan saya terasa suatru ikatan antara suasana kampong dan ibu kota. Entah kenapa… saya rindu… terasa Kuala Lumpur bukan lagi suatu yang asing… mudah2an,kalau diizinkan Allah SWT, saya ingin bertugas di UPM suatu hari nanti… ingin menabur jasa bakti pada universiti yang menerima saya yang mempunyai keputusan STPM yang tak seberapa ni… dan juga, mahu membantu sekolah saya yang menjadi gedung ilmu bagi anak desa seperti saya... agar tahap pendidikan generasi luar Bandar boleh seiring dengan generasi yang terdedah pada kemodenan kota. InsyaAllah.

CATATAN 16 OGOS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Dear Diary,

Tiada kata2 yang sesuai untuk menggambarkan perasaanku ketika ini. Rasa sangat gembira… sebab tarikh 16 ogos yang bermakna bagiku telah tiba. Macam x percaya yang aku kini sudah berusia 21 tahun… mungkin? XD ahahahaha… ramai yang tak percaya pasal tu, mungkin sebab aku kecil sangat (genetik.. nak komen apa lagi kan… ) . Mama telah memberiku sedikit wang untukku membeli sebiji kek bagi menyambut hari lahirku. Well… not every year we’re 21, right? Haha… perfect day! Sungguh… sebab? Aku yang sering bangun lewat ni dikejutkan seawal 4 pagi (bangun sahur… sebab bulan puasa… hehe). Jadi, papa mengajakku pergi ke Bandar Sandakan bersamanya, dan? Aku sempat membeli sebiji kek yang comel atas saranan papa… =D hahahaha… untuk pertama kalinya… papa yang pilih! Dulu, masa aku darjah 6, kakak sulungku dan suaminya yang membelikanku kek. Lama juga aku x sambut birthday, sampailah tahun 2010,  kakakku (anak keempat) dan suaminya pula yang membelikanku kek hari lahir..mungkin itulah kali pertama aku menyambut hari lahir jauh dari keluargaku. Rasa agak pelik..sebab tahun lepas aku meraikan hari lahir pada 20 ogos, sebab kesibukan kakakku. Tapi aku tetap gembira, ..errr… walaupun cuma meraikannya dengan hanya 3 ORANG sahaja (termasuk aku sendiri)… pada masa tu, best friendku yang seorang tu turut ada berama… =^^= hehehe…

Ah… aku patut melawat FBku pulak. Tapi, aku takkan mengharap apa2… sebab aku bukanlah orang dalam kategori “popular” (seperti yang dikatakan oleh salah seorang rakanku). Sangat jarang…erkkk.. mungkin sebab aku yang kurang bersosial? Opss…silap..aku memang kurang gemar bersosial…kehkehkeh. Dengan sikap begitu, ada juga segelintir dari kalangan keluarga dan rakanku sendiri yang mengata aku itu dan ini… ahahahaha… betapa peliknya diorang. Pelik sebab… tak kira berapa lama diorang dah bersamaku, tapi tetap tak pernah faham dan kenal aku. Ah.. forget abput those… hal2 yang takkan jadi penghalang kegembiraan hari nih… \(^^)/ feel freeeeee…  Pagi tadi, aku menerima mesej dari kawan lamaku yang merangkap rakan karibku dulu… owh… thanks so much, Fiah!! <3 dan juga buat kakakku… Ich liebe dich! Dua orang yang menghantarkan ucapan ikhlas dari SMS. Sehari sebelum itu, aku mendapat ucapan yang julung2 kalinya aku terima daripada fanclub di page Kuroshitsuji, tempatku bertugas menjadi admin dan memegang watak Meyrin di situ. Terima kasih buat semua admin dan fan club kami.  ^^v ahahahaha~<3

p/s:: mintak2 ada orang hadiahkan anak kucing atau patung arnab/teddy untuk aku… *squuueeezzz*